Lately I’ve been feeling alone. I don’t know why, but it seems to progress as the days go by. I have tons of friends, but, I haven’t spoken to them in months. I live with the love of my life (my boyfriend) but now I just feel like there’s still something missing. I don’t lack love what so ever. I just truly don’t know what’s wrong.

I feel like I’m not good enough for the world. I’m not skinny enough, I’m not talented enough, I’m not smart enough, there’s so much going through my head and it’s all of my flaws staring me right in the face. I’d love to say I have a social life but I don’t. I worry too much about school and also procrastinate. I thought I knew where my life was headed but now I’m not so sure.

I want a job, I want to move and start a new life but I feel like those things will never be. Singing wont get me far, nor will my other artistic abilities, so am I to settle for a boring 9-5 career? 

I need motivation for my life and for myself, I feel like I need to find that one person who’s going to really push me and get me going, but I haven’t found that person and I’m still sitting here. 

It makes me really angry when people assume certain things, almost like a pre-judgement about themselves which isn’t true. 

The main thing i’m really ticked about is jealousy. I can’t do this anymore, It’s like no matter what i do this certian person tries to be better or has some kind of competetion with me. GET THE FUCK OVER IT. It pisses me off, it’s not my fault I have dreams too. I want to live and see my dreams become a reality without someone trying to snatch it from underneath me. It makes me want to give up but I know if I do I will regret it because this means so much to me. 

angry and confused.

I feel like its a bunch of your closest friends sending you funny/interesting/cute/random shit for you to see and read everyday. 

sitting here stuffing a walgreens paper bag that my medication came in with sicky boogered tissues. I HATE being sick, more so now that it’s practically summer. 

UGH* 

I hope you all are enjoying your saturday more then I am right now. This blows.

im really sleepy.